The funny thing about being a widow 7 weeks and 1 day before your wedding?

Ooookay people…those of you who know me will be aware that I am a fly by the seat of my pants type of gal which, by the way, have not reduced in size as I had hoped they might before the 21st September. So with 7 weeks and 1 day left for wedding preparations, I am unusually on top of things even if I can’t claim all the credit for being so.

I began to suspect, however, that my choice of wedding dress which arrived from China some time ago might not be exactly floating my boat because it has been scrunched up and stored in a filing cabinet in my office since it was delivered. I do have a replacement, which is also in the filing cabinet but, does currently stand a much better chance of making it to the seamstress for alterations. My original choice, I have since learned, is likely to live out its days in the cabinet, owing to my lack of attention to its suppliers no return policy a somewhat costly mistake on my behalf.

In the midst of all things wedding, I have been working with a book cover designer in the US in preparation for the launch of The Funny Thing About Being a Widow? (please subscribe to this site for free, to receive publication updates and promotional offers) so time is a commodity in short supply at the moment. I am up at 4.30am and usually in bed by 9.00pm and the hours in-between seem to have much less than 60 minutes in each of them and as a result, I now have several, back to back episodes of Four in a bed to catch up on.

As I contemplate the up and coming changes in my life I can barely believe my luck. Kenny died on the 14th August 2014 after which I developed my cunning plan something I describe in my book in some detail but for now, I will simply say that it is a very good job that it didn’t work.

I know how fortunate I am to be spending my days doing what I love to do and learning things I never imagined for a minute that I would be capable of whilst I do it. On top of this, I have met, and am about to marry, a truly wonderful man who I love with all my heart. Never a day goes by where I am not thankful for the life that I once had and I hope that Kenny is proud of my attempts to honour each of his three requests, but I am also beyond grateful for the life I am living now too.

Crikey is that the time? I really should be ordering something bridal related from Amazon…oh yes people…my cash incontinence has re-emerged in fine style. I am already awaiting the delivery of some bump its (don’t ask) a hair extension wig thing (like I don’t have enough of my own- but it just feels necessary to own some more just now) and several pairs of shoes because well…you would expect no less? I also need to purchase some scaffolding from Simply Be to wear under my current front runner dress because I am finding that the JUST EAT app on my phone is much more efficient at meeting my current dietary needs than those suggested by WeightWatchers.The good news though is, our postman is definitely looking a lot less porky these days must remember to ask him about the secret of his success.